I want that—lunch dharma talk mentioned the total surrender into a long secluded practice before a certain age, 死命修, du loh ki. Before 30-33?
I sat for 2.5 hours straight and my hip hurts af now. Snuck in a call at night with dear spiritual bro broke up with their person who just refused to move beyond white distance and disconnection and parsed thru East Asian aesthetics. Sigh.